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mild rant about the artistic process, mention of lewd stuff
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Something I enjoy doing from time to time is to take my old-ass broadcast camera (those who know will know), place the lights and the angles and the backgrounds, take out my old partial fursuit and play with filming kinda lewd video's.
I enjoy the challenge of it; i'm on my own and have to get creative with framing to only show the parts of my body that I like and hide those that I don't. My camera ain't amazing and I have to get real creative to make it work (but if it was easy then what's the fun of it?); my body is quite apt at it if i judge so myself but it still feels very exposing to show intimate parts of it to the internet.
However, I have one friend who likes it and the rest universally find it really mid. I know IRL fursuit porn is quite a niche, and i am not in the right spheres to become big and famous (plus to be real that requires using body parts that I *don't* like at all, it's a niche within a niche), but it still feels like a shame to put so much effort in for something I can quite literally throw in the toilet.
And I feel like it's part of the artistic struggle; having something that you really enjoy but not getting a chance for the world to appreciate your genius.
The irony is if I contrast it to something like my photography. Everyone loves a good portrait photo, and it ain't terribly hard to take out a good set of gear on a nice event and shoot some memories that will be beloved by everyone. But I feel like it's too easy; I have fantastic gear and can quite literally point at the sun and get the shot but the photo's are starting too feel samey and frankly a bit boring and staged to be at this point.
I need challenge to appreciate my own work, but it's not challenge that will make it appreciated by others (unless they are massive nerds like you and even then, like my last escapades showed you need more than nerdery to make the nerds show up).
And I don't quite know what direction to go with it. In photography I can always keep doing what I do now, whilst maybe not the most technically challenging I can rest assured that people love what I made. But in video, yeah I have to have a good think...
..and yes before you ask, i have tried non-lewd stuff on video too but I think it's the lewd things that came out the most interesting. I just lack a bit of creativity in other matters, which might make it worse but i know too little about the subject to tell.
I enjoy the challenge of it; i'm on my own and have to get creative with framing to only show the parts of my body that I like and hide those that I don't. My camera ain't amazing and I have to get real creative to make it work (but if it was easy then what's the fun of it?); my body is quite apt at it if i judge so myself but it still feels very exposing to show intimate parts of it to the internet.
However, I have one friend who likes it and the rest universally find it really mid. I know IRL fursuit porn is quite a niche, and i am not in the right spheres to become big and famous (plus to be real that requires using body parts that I *don't* like at all, it's a niche within a niche), but it still feels like a shame to put so much effort in for something I can quite literally throw in the toilet.
And I feel like it's part of the artistic struggle; having something that you really enjoy but not getting a chance for the world to appreciate your genius.
The irony is if I contrast it to something like my photography. Everyone loves a good portrait photo, and it ain't terribly hard to take out a good set of gear on a nice event and shoot some memories that will be beloved by everyone. But I feel like it's too easy; I have fantastic gear and can quite literally point at the sun and get the shot but the photo's are starting too feel samey and frankly a bit boring and staged to be at this point.
I need challenge to appreciate my own work, but it's not challenge that will make it appreciated by others (unless they are massive nerds like you and even then, like my last escapades showed you need more than nerdery to make the nerds show up).
And I don't quite know what direction to go with it. In photography I can always keep doing what I do now, whilst maybe not the most technically challenging I can rest assured that people love what I made. But in video, yeah I have to have a good think...
..and yes before you ask, i have tried non-lewd stuff on video too but I think it's the lewd things that came out the most interesting. I just lack a bit of creativity in other matters, which might make it worse but i know too little about the subject to tell.
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